Oh, don't get me wrong; I do appreciate what I have. I know that I wouldn't be who I am today without certain people - there are things that I wouldn't have done, wouldn't have experienced, and other friends I wouldn't have made; I would be far less complete.
It's more that I realised that I don't have people from certain times in my life. People I can reminisce with about The Good Ol' Days and what have you. The type of friend I mentioned, the one who's been there from early childhood with whom there are treasured memories and unspoken languages and whatever else, that's just the ideal, the thing I feel I'm missing prettied-up and personified in Soap Drama conditions.
That, and I feel that I'm still only just getting to know some of my friends. Apart from work people and a few others, I feel I'm still in the Small Talk stage, or only just moving on from it. Which makes things difficult because I'm wired more for DnMs than small talk :P I'd like to be able to fall back on an old, comfortable friendship.
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It's more that I realised that I don't have people from certain times in my life. People I can reminisce with about The Good Ol' Days and what have you. The type of friend I mentioned, the one who's been there from early childhood with whom there are treasured memories and unspoken languages and whatever else, that's just the ideal, the thing I feel I'm missing prettied-up and personified in Soap Drama conditions.
That, and I feel that I'm still only just getting to know some of my friends. Apart from work people and a few others, I feel I'm still in the Small Talk stage, or only just moving on from it.
Which makes things difficult because I'm wired more for DnMs than small talk :PI'd like to be able to fall back on an old, comfortable friendship.