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Well, haven't I felt a range of emotions today!
Watching Sleep Breathing in class because he sat in front of me, and noticing all his perfections, kind of had a bad effect on me. I wasn't feeling insecure; no, I was well past that. I couldn't even get the lift down with him - I felt like I had to take the stairs. Walking back to the bus, I was getting more and more self-conscious, which wasn't helped by the fact that my laptop, in my bag, was putting me off balance.
Got on the bus and, and by that stage, I was sorta angry. Don't know what at, though; maybe it was just the laptop, and the fact that it didn't turn off last night when I left it to shut down, so it's battery was dead and therefore pointless having it at uni. I got even more angry when some horrible parents and their little kid got on, about the way they were treating him. Especially the dad, but the mum wasn't really helping.
Got home and found that I had had my copy of The Adventures of Dr McNinja delivered. This made me much happy. For those of you who don't who Dr McNinja is, you might want to read up (I suggest going to the archive and getting the first issue, which is actually Dr McNinja #1/2).
And, while uploading some new pictures to myspace (which I've added below), I found a draft for an old LJ post. I don't know if I ever posted it, but it was from around the time of the Triangle Saga, i.e. two years ago, and it brought back a lot of memories. It was, in general, to school friends and "friends" alike, but it was, at a couple of moments, pointed specifically at one particular end of the triangle. I was pretty fed up with them all at the time, but the concept was actually quite flattering once you got through all the negativity. That my ex loved me while She was with someone else, and had done so for the almost two years She was with Him, I mean, was quite flattering. Not Him thinking that I was trying to steal Her. god, He was a prick. And so were all the people telling me how "obvious" it was that I Liked her. That seriously pisses me off. Their incessant repetition of that, plus all the crap I heard about Him behind His back from Her, the flattering nature of it all, and that I couldn't stand to say "no" to Her for a second time, just became too much for me and I let things happen that I shouldn't have and I regret the entire thing. If only I'd come out to myself earlier... could have saved a looooot of hassle.
Hurting Fawn
Original Fawn
Cleaner Fawn
Watching Sleep Breathing in class because he sat in front of me, and noticing all his perfections, kind of had a bad effect on me. I wasn't feeling insecure; no, I was well past that. I couldn't even get the lift down with him - I felt like I had to take the stairs. Walking back to the bus, I was getting more and more self-conscious, which wasn't helped by the fact that my laptop, in my bag, was putting me off balance.
Got on the bus and, and by that stage, I was sorta angry. Don't know what at, though; maybe it was just the laptop, and the fact that it didn't turn off last night when I left it to shut down, so it's battery was dead and therefore pointless having it at uni. I got even more angry when some horrible parents and their little kid got on, about the way they were treating him. Especially the dad, but the mum wasn't really helping.
Got home and found that I had had my copy of The Adventures of Dr McNinja delivered. This made me much happy. For those of you who don't who Dr McNinja is, you might want to read up (I suggest going to the archive and getting the first issue, which is actually Dr McNinja #1/2).
And, while uploading some new pictures to myspace (which I've added below), I found a draft for an old LJ post. I don't know if I ever posted it, but it was from around the time of the Triangle Saga, i.e. two years ago, and it brought back a lot of memories. It was, in general, to school friends and "friends" alike, but it was, at a couple of moments, pointed specifically at one particular end of the triangle. I was pretty fed up with them all at the time, but the concept was actually quite flattering once you got through all the negativity. That my ex loved me while She was with someone else, and had done so for the almost two years She was with Him, I mean, was quite flattering. Not Him thinking that I was trying to steal Her. god, He was a prick. And so were all the people telling me how "obvious" it was that I Liked her. That seriously pisses me off. Their incessant repetition of that, plus all the crap I heard about Him behind His back from Her, the flattering nature of it all, and that I couldn't stand to say "no" to Her for a second time, just became too much for me and I let things happen that I shouldn't have and I regret the entire thing. If only I'd come out to myself earlier... could have saved a looooot of hassle.
Hurting Fawn
Original Fawn
Cleaner Fawn
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