huh, so much for distance. This conversation has totally broken down whatever barrier I couldn't get through by myself. Thanks, I needed that. However, I think that the next time I'm going to have the house to myself, I'm going to have to organise something that involves other people. Anything, just so long as I'm not alone. That's what brought all this to the surface. That, which turned into thoughts of Jason possibly being at Joe's tomorrow night and my distrust of myself and my emotions, which turned into the post you can't see, which turned into this post.

Unfortunately, I can't hide in the heads of my characters, because they all feel like my own head. That's why I go music. Except... I seem not to have an abundance of happy music. Thank god for Kate Miller-Heidke though.

Is Jason so hard because he's just a big ball of inner turmoil and confusion and anything you try to write just makes him sound like a wimpy emo?