No, it's good. It means I might actually sleep tonight instead of laying in bed awake for hours because I can't get over the lump in my throat. 'Cause that's seriously not fun.
I don't want to keep you up by keeping you on gmail. And phone is bad because I'd wake someone up. Plus, I usually feel horribly stupid and mildly guilty (not to mention childish) when I get emo like this and whinge to people. Tonight not as much because I hid most of it, but... a little bit. It's easing up though. I'll be right. In fact, I'm going to have to be because I need to head off after this comment.
Jason isn't "gay", per se; he's just in love with a boy. Or, perhaps more accurately, he's just in love with boylove, I dunno. In any case, he's got a problem with the label "gay" and how everyone else will read it, not a problem with the contents of the package. I think he's quite possibly bi, or maybe just so against the label "gay" (because he clearly likes boylove) that he's willing to put out for the girls to prove the label doesn't fit him so snuggly. Girls become proof that he isn't gay, proof he can pull out in an argument or a fight; his silver bullet; plausible deniability. That or he's just hormonal and "can't help himself".
He's dominant because in his mind his wants and needs come first. But that doesn't mean he always knows what he wants for himself. He doesn't exactly seem to be in love with Peter to me; I'll grant that they're close, but he seems to be lead more by lust than love. Then again, we really don't see them come together, so it's hard to tell what their initial motivations were. But my point is that he's dominant in that he finds his sex drive more important than Peter's emotional attachment to him (I want this now and I'll get it from you whatever the cost), while he's unsure of whether he actually wants to be with Peter long-term (will I really want it tomorrow?).
Personally, I don't see devoted. Peter is devoted.
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I don't want to keep you up by keeping you on gmail. And phone is bad because I'd wake someone up. Plus, I usually feel horribly stupid and mildly guilty (not to mention childish) when I get emo like this and whinge to people. Tonight not as much because I hid most of it, but... a little bit. It's easing up though. I'll be right. In fact, I'm going to have to be because I need to head off after this comment.
Jason isn't "gay", per se; he's just in love with a boy. Or, perhaps more accurately, he's just in love with boylove, I dunno. In any case, he's got a problem with the label "gay" and how everyone else will read it, not a problem with the contents of the package. I think he's quite possibly bi, or maybe just so against the label "gay" (because he clearly likes boylove) that he's willing to put out for the girls to prove the label doesn't fit him so snuggly. Girls become proof that he isn't gay, proof he can pull out in an argument or a fight; his silver bullet; plausible deniability. That or he's just hormonal and "can't help himself".
He's dominant because in his mind his wants and needs come first. But that doesn't mean he always knows what he wants for himself. He doesn't exactly seem to be in love with Peter to me; I'll grant that they're close, but he seems to be lead more by lust than love. Then again, we really don't see them come together, so it's hard to tell what their initial motivations were. But my point is that he's dominant in that he finds his sex drive more important than Peter's emotional attachment to him (I want this now and I'll get it from you whatever the cost), while he's unsure of whether he actually wants to be with Peter long-term (will I really want it tomorrow?).
Personally, I don't see devoted. Peter is devoted.