EXAMS ARE OVER

[phrasemuffin]

yes, that's right - all 2 of my exams are over. Linguistics today was pretty crap but last week's Education was good. Of course it helped that Dr Stevie (Edu Lecturer) told us pretty much exatly what was going to be on the exam, so... yeah, we love our Dr Stevie. :D

To celebrate, I have decided to write some things down that I need want to tell certain people but probably won't ever be able to. Don't worry - if you're reading this, it probably isn't about you.

So here it goes...

- as much as you are the one I want to be with, I don't think I can keep doing this, waiting for you to actually See me. Every time we speak, I freak out thinking that with every word I say you are losing more and more interest in me, seeing more and more of my deficiencies and bad habits. We started out super, but somewhere along the way we both changed. And now, despite my feelings about you, I have to give you up before I get you, else I'll go insane.

- next time, before you ask a question, or make a comment, or in any way speak, think. Stop asking for the same help over and over and over again - learn to do these basic things for yourself. Work it out. You are more than capable.

- I wish I could be so much more like you are. I know you think you have faults, but your better qualities outshine them so much that no one notices until you point them out. You have no idea how much I look up to you.

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[citizenerased.livejournal.com]

Man, you're so lucky your exams are all over. I have three to go, two on the same day... happy happy joy joy. Kill me now.

To celebrate, I have decided to write some things down that I need to tell certain people but won't ever be able to.

If you need to do it, then do it! No point delaying stuff you need to do. Especially No. 2. If you won't tell them, who will? Sounds like they need to cHaNgE tHeIr WaYs ~

[phrasemuffin.livejournal.com]

two in one day? that seriously sucks. but you'll be fine. after all, you are The Amazing Andrew. :P when are they?

ok, so "need" wasn't the right word. "want" is possibly more appropriate. maybe even "am dying". I will fix that.

No. 1 I've given up on. I don't know how to be any more obvious without making an arse out of myself and they aren't going to notice me, so I don't "need" to tell them. There's no real point.
No. 2 I've told, they just don't listen. I just have to find a way of getting it across.
And No. 3... I'm sure there'll be an appropriate moment sooner or later.

[citizenerased.livejournal.com]

They are next Monday. Not looking forward to it, but I'm going out for a night on the city on Saturday, for lots of drinking and karaoke so I can sing my woes away ~

Are they all on your lj? You should do the Paranoia Meme! Strikes fear in everybody.

[phrasemuffin.livejournal.com]

Good plan! I'll be waiting a bit to celebrate, but on December 2nd I'm going out with work peoples. We'll all be finished then, so it'll be extra happy then.

No. Nonononono. Two of them... if ever they read this journal, I don't know what I would do. I'm related to them, and it would be bad. *nods*

Last time I did the Paranoia Meme no one noticed, so there was zero fear. Of course, it didn't help that half the people I wrote about never actually read their friends list at the time. Truly, it was a disasterous attempt.

[citizenerased.livejournal.com]

Oooh, how curious. Does that means No. 1 must read your flist then cause I doubt you'd be talking about someone related to you like that.

... Unless you're into that.

And you're right. I don't remember your paranoia meme at all sorry. I guess you didn't invoke the power of the LJ DRAMA LLAMA enough.

[phrasemuffin.livejournal.com]

It doesn't mean No. 1 does read it, it just means that No. 1 could read it. I'd have no problems with that at all.

And no, I'm not related to them. Ew - I'm not Tasmanian.

Don't worry, it was long before you were on my list. But you're right - I probably didn't spice it up enough. Next time, there'll be so much Drama Llama Secret Spice that you'll all be at each others' throats.. or mine. Either way. As long as it is entertaining!!